What is wrong with everyone?? i mean come on! i don't understand why all the drama has to be going on! on one hand you have people who are going down the wrong path and ya i got it your not, its just all you every talk about! im not stupid and i wasnt born yesterday! if your not into a drug you don't talk about it all the effing time! so here i have a friend who at one point in time was like a brother to me! did everything for him! took him to get his drivers lisence, to get his teeth worked on, to the zoo, out to eat too many times, did his hair more times then i can count, to michigan free of any charge. what happens to me? i get pushed aside when something new and funner comes along. new friends with drugs! what a great friend huh? do you think those friends are really going to be there to sit and listen to you cry for a month next time some girl breaks your heart? No they will be to high to care!  do you think he even calls to tell nick happy birthday or sorry i missed your party! nope! great friends i make huh?

on the other hand we have the ungrateful brother in law. go ahead choose your girl over your family! and i do mean more then just nick your own effing blood! how about your other friends who you have known your whole effing life? who have always been here sitting in the car for 30 mins so you can make out with your girl on her lunch break! you have always said they were like your family! but omg they don't like your girlfriend so i will never talk to them again! do you think that maybe they just see something you don't? maybe you are to blinded by finally getting laid on a regular basis to see the things that are wrong? no? after everything that has been done for you by me, nick and your friends you can choose? how could you? i have never made nick choose any one over me! and omg after she was told not to drink she can still come over get **** faced and desrepect our house and now we are the bad people? how does that work?

both of you are ****ed more then you ever know! i love both of you with all my heart and i always will but when your house of cards comes crashing down i will not be there! you make your beds now lay in it! don't look for me when **** goes wrong or you need someone! i am done careing! i have been careing to much for too long! and it hurts me too much! so thats it!

okay so finally after like for ever they came in! what and i talking about? my deathnote cosplay dolls! they are tooo effing cute!!! yes i am a huge dork and i live for my anime, and L and Ryuk are the cheeze to my crackers!

okay so things are (i hope) getting worked out!! The ac guy came and it was the stupidest thing ever!! the cover was off the main part up stairs the one that has the fan in it so he screwed it back on!! ya i paid some one $40 to put a cover bad on! down side to that... and upside i guess! i found out the wireing for my heater is too small so if i use the heater my house is going to catch fire so if anyone knows a good cheap electrician please let me know!!! okay so that is that.

now for the car! i sat there about all day on wen or as i like to call it the day from hell!! and they desided to clean out my fuel lines! only for me to start driveing it and find out that wasn't the problem! so i was about ready to kill them. so now my check engine lights on my car wont speed up and feels like its going to die! and i payed over $150 for that! so i finally got to take it back today after talking to the manager and i had to replace the ignition coil! so i spent the whole morning there and they took care of my deductable, cause i was not fixin to pay them anymore!! thats the short story i would go into the rest but it just makes me mad every time i get into it!

so my car is fixed and my ac is fixed! now i need to fine some time to clean my house! grrr i hate being a grown up!! why cant i be 5 again!!